Alone at one meter

Forced isolation during COVID.

Alone with a thoughts, fears, likes, desires, claims, affections.  Sometimes they become unbearable, sometimes they please me, sometimes they calm me down, sometimes they make me angry.  At the beginning of the quarantine, I tried to determine what lesson for myself I can learn from this situation?  No conclusions were drawn.  Fear and anxiety were the dominant emotions.  I was sure that they are not a moment and I will not be able to live with any other emotion until the quarantine ends.

 

Instead, the fear and anxiety passed over time.  In the rest, I realized something for myself: It is impossible to control everything.  There are things that happen regardless of my wishes, actions, thoughts, hopes.  I don't control everything around me.  Something can happen without my intervention.  And this discovery is relaxing.  After all, you can actually not think about anything.  To do strange things.  Doing something that is hard to explain.  Marveling at your uniqueness and finding new meanings for simple, familiar things.